My Old Name

by Justin Lawson

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released January 8, 2015

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Track Name: Where the Valley Meets the Plane
Burned black valley I remember you well
As a turn I didn't mean to take
Your scorched black soil some shade of hell
The fire left in its wake

Anna your hair was as black as that place
Your love as quiet and as large
Always held my hand like you were going away
In your head already far

Are you getting tired
Tired of being tied
To things you already know
Is it time to go

Darling you're a fire on an open plane
Got to move on just to burn again
Maybe you'll find I'm not the only one
You come to know when it's been too long

I walked through that valley 'til the sun went down
A place it seemed that I could be alone
And high on the hill warm winds from the plane
Shook trees the fire didn't burn

Anna it's been a year since you left this place
The signs of you linger on
I wake in your shadow at the dawn of each day
A place I've found it's good to be alone

Aren't you getting tired
Tired of running wild
Never coming home
Never staying long

Darling you're a fire on an open plane
Got to move on just to burn again
Maybe you'll find I'm not the only one
You come to know when it's been too long

Maybe you're a fire on an open plane
Got to move on just to burn again
Maybe you'll find I'm not the only one
You come to love when it's been too long
Track Name: The Clearing
Well it seems I just can't get it right
Every turn that I take
Suppose I just can't go back now
With the bridges I burned
There's a mountain here for those who wait
Endless trees for the rest
From a distance you can know this place
But in it you're adrift

The forest crowds in and steals the light
And the shadows play in your tired gaze
And the branches bite

You can tell when no one knows you're gone
There's a certainty at night
And hear the clearings the bend beyond
Something moaning in them
Well I hope I meet the beast some time
The one I know walks by my side
Stays with me as a shadow would
Keeping stride

The forest crowds in and steals the light
And a deep deep wound cut by the moon
Stares in the night

The stars they come down, lay by my side
I'm a glittering fool or a hidden jewel
Or a man on fire

Well it seems I just won't sleep tonight
All the dreams I have are old
Dreamt of a mountain, I dreamt of a monster
Dreamed I'd burned

The forest crowds in and steals the light
And a deep deep wound cut by the moon
Stares in the night

The stars they come down, lay by my side
I'm a glittering fool, just a false jewel
Another man on fire
Track Name: A Stranger
You're voiceless in a crowd
Try to speak but all that comes out
Words you did not mean to say
Some things that people say

Looking for a friend with a golden heart
Who can keep you whole when shit's falling apart
Would take a blind turn when it's getting dark
Just to get you home

You go out for a walk
To clear your head of messy thoughts
Soon you find there's nothing left
Just some dark street and your own breath

Is it good enough
When you don't know who you are
Is it good enough
When you don't know who you are

Settled into someone's bones
Payed their dues and kept their home
Now you wake in a cold sweat
There's a stranger in your own bed

Is it good enough
When you don't ask who you are
Is it good enough
When you don't ask who you are

Find yourself a friend with a plastic heart
Who will say it's ok when shit's falling apart
Take a blind turn when it's getting dark
Leave you on your own

Is it good enough
When your friends say who you are
Is it good enough
When your friends say who you are
Track Name: Caught You on a Warm Day in Fall
Love I
Saw you on the street on the far side
Caught you on a warm day in fall
Hanging up your silence on walls
Whistling in library halls
A song I don't know

Love I
Awoke to the sound of your goodbye
Smoothed out your indent in bed
Drank the red wine you had left
Took back the books you had read

Love I
Heard you're passing through on the night line
Saw another wearing your dress
Took a try at lingering less
In hollows that your body had blessed

I wandered out while you wandered in
I wore the sweater that you made me so thin
It didn't keep me warm on that day in fall
When I never answered and you never called

Love I
Saw you on the street on the far side
Caught you on a warm day in fall
Hanging up our silence on walls
Whistling a song that I've heard
So many times before
Track Name: Manzanita
Better to be gone than to be far
Under your skin instead of a scar
Letter that I never should have wrote
Found you in a town without post

Summer that I should have run away
You showed me on maps where we were staying
At night on gravel roads the warmest winds
Lifted your hair into a dance

It settled in like stones dear
I never wanted anyone but you
Manzanita fires burned
Lines through the forest where I first met you

Fell asleep in dead grass by the road
Clouds shaped like lungs kept me cold
Inside you're in love with someone old
I should have known from long ago

It settled in like stones dear
I never could have anyone like you
Manzanita fires burned
Lines through the forest where I first met you

Better to be gone than to be far
In back of your mind instead of your car
On a dark and getting darker road
That bends through a forest we don't know

It settled in like stones dear
I never could have anyone like you
Manzanita fires burned
Lines through the forest where I first met you
Lines through the forest where I first met you
Track Name: The Frozen Road
Under the alder where I slept that day
Leave me a sign if you feel this way
Drove like a bullet in the dead of night
Felt my engine sing like a heart of gold

Should have sure should've saved your place
Knew you'd return then I turned away
Fucked up in Denver late one night
Felt my engine burn bright

Yeah so I never called your home
You think I knew you were there alone
Well go on here's time we can sit and speak
And all that you do is lean on me

Honey you can't just let me go
I sunk my roots in years ago
Darling you can't just let me in
Unless you've got me a second skin

I'm glad I wake up sometimes alone
And nothing reminds me of where I'm from
Nobody leaves me signs in trees
Or hides notes in glances that I can't read

It's hard to drive faster when the roads are froze
Everyone's after a hear of gold
Hard to move faster than the hands you feed
But now everyone's back there in the dust of me

Honey you can't just let me go
I sunk my roots in years ago
Darling you can't just let me in
Unless you've got me a second skin

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Track Name: An Unlocked Door
I got sick of the drawn-out drive
Start to think we'll never arrive
Cannot end what you don't begin
Been there and back and there again

Been a while I don't know how long
It's never me who answers the phone
Some excuse for an old-time friend
Who's gone then there then gone again

Don't turn back again
We're over that now
X2

Dawn it breaks in a desert town
Knock on my door but I'm not around
Fell asleep by an old dead pine
A drunken fool sunk deep in wine

You recall how we lodged the car
Deep in snow by the reservoir
Miles away from the nearest town
We wandered off were never found

I stayed warm in snow
But you you went far
X2

Did you lock the door my friend
I don't think so
X2

I caught word that you found a tow
Came back for me years ago
You caught word that I found a town
The car submerged beneath the ground

Been a while I don't know just why
It's never me who brings up the time
We drove somewhere that's far away
And kept some things that went to waste

Don't turn back again
We're over that now
X2

Did you lock the door my friend
I don't think so
X2
Track Name: Full Kettle
Put a full kettle on
'cause my hands forget you're gone
And the water takes too long
'cause I watch

Head East for the day
'cause the sun it comes from that place
But the clouds just role on with my wheels
And the lights fade

All at once you put me out
And I don't know how to run
Through it all
All at once you put me out
Of your life

Went home for a spell
And threw diamonds in the well
Wish I didn't know so well
What they cost

Reach out in the night
'cause in dreams I don't lose the fight
Or the fight is over some things
We can change

All at once you put me out
And I don't know how to fall
Through it all
All at once you put me out
Of your life

Keep your socks in my drawer
But I don't know what for
Just seems better than the trash
Or the floor

Head west for the day
'cause the sun it goes down that way
But the cities are keeping the gates
And the lights fade

Now I come to realize
I was too afraid to fall
In love
Now I come to realize
I was wrong
Track Name: My Old Name
Let us walk
In the rising tide
To the sound of waves
On a summer's night
I've been gone
So long before
But I swear I'm yours
Now forever more

Over the rising tide
We'll take our
Love out to brave the storm
We'll open
Both of our hearts so wide
We'll break them
Don't need luck
I just need you tonight

Take my hand
There's no time to waste
We can walk the coast
If we never wait
Were we young
Or just there before
All the other lovers
Were washed to shore

Over the rising tide
We'll take our
Love out to brave the storm
We'll open
Both of our hearts so wide
We'll break them
Don't need luck
I just need you tonight

And I want you to see
That our love is not smaller than the sea
And you should know
It can't keep us if we go
If we decide to go
If we decide to go
If we decide to go
Then we'll go

Lift your head
To the salty breeze
So your skin it glows
Like the moon in the sea
I would change
Just to stay inside
Of the warmth you gave
To those summer nights

Over the rising tide
I hear your
Voice calling my old name
I'll keep a
Part of you my whole life
Inside me
Don't need luck
I just need you tonight
Though I know
We'll never swim again
Though I know
We'll never swim again